This week I didn't have any super crazy experiences like last week, but I know the Lord is still
with me. I didn't recognize that at first and I felt sort of alone. It
was depressing, but then the scripture (I don’t know where it is but I know the
words), "Be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed for the Lord thy God is
with thee whithersoever thou goest" came into my mind. Then upon
further thought, I realized that God is with us everywhere we go, not only
physically, but spiritually. The thought came into my mind about a young
boy, on the computer doing bad things, but over his shoulder, right by his
side, one can see the Savior, a single tear streaming down his face, as he
keeps trying to whisper that he loves the young boy and wishes that he would
stop. He´s not mad, He´s not angry, He´s only sad and maybe a little
disappointed, but not disappointed in the young boy, disappointed that His
influence was not enough on its own to stop the boy from sinning. But that’s
how it is with all of us. His influence is not enough. His grace and hand
outstretched are only powerful enough to change us if we accept his grace and
take hold of his hand. God has given us agency, so we must use it
correctly, and if we don’t we will not be changed or be able to return back to
Heavenly Father; however, when we fall, because we will fall, He will be there
every step it takes for us to get back up. He will even be there if we
choose not to get back up. He will sit beside us and weep for us, wishing
only for our joy and happiness, which will come through obedience. It was
a very interesting piece of revelation that came to me all from one verse and
one image in my head. If I were an artist I would draw it, but sadly I am
not.
Me with Elder VanZanten
Like I said, not much
happened this week. OH! Well, we got our new district and GUESS WHO WAS IN IT:
Amy Saunders!! Isn't that so funny? We were both super surprised. So far
while here I’ve shared a lot of my experiences with her. I didn't realize just
how much I´ve changed in terms of spirituality until someone who already knew me came, and the first impression they got from me was me bearing my testimony
about the MTC and the Gospel. It was really funny. Our new district is
really fun! I like them all a lot. Also, we finally got our departure
times and such!!! I´m leaving for Tampico on Monday at 2:30 am... really
early! I don’t know what to expect at all, but I am so excited to get out
of the CCM. It´s really awesome here, but you can start to feel a little
cooped up after 6 weeks. I´m not sure if I´ll be able to email Monday seeing
as it is technically p-day, but I don’t know if it will be full of orientation and
that sort of stuff. Anyways,
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